The 5th day

i dint go to school today because i
HACHIU~~
HACHIU~~~
hmm...you know...
haha

but its a good thgs too...
at school there is no teaching anymore and lots of absentees...
so what for im going to school?
to sit down there and thinking all the past?

all the sweet memories?
whenever i think back those days...
i feel very pity towards myself...
im so sad thinking of that...
now holiday is coming...
we used to plan going out together and so on...
but for soo long this is the first time we dint have any planning nor even contact since the holiday is reaching...

i used to hold you when we are together...
used to pull your nose
used to rub your cheeks
used to kiss you anytime
used to play with your hair
used to hold you tight while your watching any stage shows

those are the time being together...
i feel so painfull or i should say sweet IN MY HEART...
it had all gone...
no more

the 5th day came so fast its gonna be one week...
in btween this momoment i guess she had changed alot...
she have lots of friends to deal with and lots of activity...
her heart maybe had fallen towards other people?
i dont know...
its so scary to think bout that
since the day she is not my gf...
it had been all out of my control...
i feel i cant hold her heart anymore...
all the promise towards me...
where had it gone?

feel so tired of myself...
feel so tired thinking of the one who already left you down bu then you are still thinking of her...

gonna sleep again...
sleep till im totaly awake!